A surprise non-proposal...

The night started as any other. I'd just risen from a peaceful sleep when I saw the note lying on the bedside table telling me to wear something pretty and be ready to go soon. I wasn't surprised by that because Chance was always doing things like this. It's why I find myself smiling all the time when he's around. But I hurried and showered, then dressed for the night.



I'd just finished when Chance shimmered in. Before I knew what was happening he'd grabbed my hand and we shimmered out, reappearing in Siena. We were standing on the mountain that overlooked our villa there, the place I'd never taken another, the one that was just ours. It was where we fell in love, where we shared our first kiss and it was simply beautiful.

I was starting to wonder what he was up to and I had every reason to be suspicious it seems. Out of nowhere that damn demon of mine dropped to one knee and managed to shock the fuck out of me.

Then he began to talk and I began to cry. I'll never forget what he said.

" I have loved you for around 600 years now. I have watched as you married others. I have been patient while you found yourself. I love everything about you, Sunshine. You love completely when you let yourself love others. I don't wish to change you or to tie you down. I wish for us to want to spend forever with each other."

It was then I asked him what the hell he was doing. And he pulled out the most beautiful ring I've ever laid eyes on and said...

"I'm asking the woman the I love to spend eternity with me by choice. Will you not marry me?"

I think I laughed through my tears as I said YES and jumped into his arms. He put that gorgeous ring on my finger and it felt right. We're together because we want to be, not because there are locks on our doors or a piece of paper saying we have to be. We love one another, but we also know that we're immortal beings and we both crave freedom to explore this world we exist in. So we'll pave our own way, make our own rules and be happy when we're together.

And in the end, when it's all said and done, we'll always know that this was the way we were meant to be.

The Truth Shall Set You Free....

~sitting down at the table, a warm blood in front of me opening the diary to that night...needing those words again, falling into the memory easily as if I were reliving it~

I hadn't been sitting there long when he walked in. I watched him from the darkened corner of the bar, knowing by his scent that he was demon. I'd know that scent anywhere. I'd been crying into my blood over Severus again that night, missing him beyond that which words could describe.

But there was something about the dark haired man that made me want to know him better. I watched as he scanned the room, his eyes resting on me and I smiled. Taking it as an invitation, he crossed the crowded bar and sat across from me without waiting for an invitation.

We made small talk for a while before I simply stated that I had to go and he offered me a ride home. It just so happened that I'd run to Shreveport that night so I accepted without hesitation. Though I would have even if I had driven.

I wanted this man, wanted him in ways I couldn't fully comprehend. I quickly suggested the cottage since I couldn't really take him home to my husband. The cottage had served me well during my trysts with the other demon and so we hurried there.

~the memory of his touch, the way his kiss rocked me to my core, how I still could get weak from just one kiss to this day wash over me and I think of all the times we met there. How those nights that Severus was gone I would welcome Chance into my bed, my arms, my heart. I closed the journal, lost in my own thoughts now.~

I was living two lives then. Those nights with Severus were happy and I loved him so much that I couldn't fathom hurting him but when he left, it was as if another person emerged. When Chance called, I couldn't resist. It was strong, this pull he had on me. I found myself wanting him more and more. I had no choice but to lie, deceive the ones I loved. I had to be the perfect wife and mother they expected. And I did want my life with Severus. I wanted it all. The marriage, the family but I craved the freedom I felt with Chance. I craved the way he made me feel, how he never made me feel less than I was. He never left me the way Severus did. He never broke my heart with his words or actions.

While I never fully trusted my husband, I trusted Chance. I trusted that he would never let me fall, that he'd always have my back. Soon, I would have a choice to make, one we discussed at length, making the choice that would serve us best. The plan had been laid out before us and I was living it. But it was all a lie. Everything I promised him, I longed to promise another.

Soon the truth will emerge. Soon the world will know what we've done and why. Their reactions will not matter. Only one. Only HIS. Soon he will know why it had to happen this way. Soon I will have no option but to explain it all. I only hope he forgives me for what I've done.

Hey kiddies, it's me, Sunshine. I know, the body, the hair, the voice are all different now, but you see I'm in here. I'm getting stronger every day and soon this Zoey bitch will be gone for good.

Then, well, then there will be hell to pay.

Every night finds me closer to control of this host. Take last night for instance, I, Sunshine managed to retain control for most of the night. I fucked, I fed, I flirted. Gods it felt good to be me again.

So hold on to your seats boys and girls, Sunny is back and I'm out for blood.

Becoming Zoey..A Journey from Hell...

Hi, I'm Zoey. That's about as much as I know about who I am actually. You see I woke up in a hotel room a few days ago and I didn't even know my name. Searching for clues I found a picture of two men and I just knew that I had to find them. Something deep inside of me wanted to see them more than anything.

While searching I met a few nice people along the way. I've made friends here and I think I like it here. BUT.........

Things are not always good for me. I don't remember anything about my past and it's kind of scary. There are times when I lose periods of time. It's like someone else just takes over and I disappear. I don't really know how to explain it.

Then there are the dreams. Dreams of things I KNOW are real and that they actually happened. But they aren't MY dreams. The woman in them is someone else and to be honest, she scares me.

Other times I hear this voice in my head and feel like someone is trying to just control what I do. I'm not sure it even makes sense to me, so I don't know how you all will understand it.

And there is Chance. He's just the bee's knees and I think I might love him, though I don't really remember him. I like the way I feel when I'm with him and he's so kind to me. At times I wonder why he's with me. It feels as if he wants me to be someone else.

~~GROWLING, struggling to be free and in control of this fucking body~~

FIRST THINGS FIRST....I AM HERE..Stuck in this fucking body. Yes, bitches, it's ME. SUNFUCKINGSHINE. Miss me?

Then get off your fucking asses and GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HER!!

Let me tell you what's really going on here. Somehow I wound up in this ~sweeps a hang over Zoey's body~ body. As if I belong here. ~rolls eyes~ But any body is better than none at the moment.

~smirks~ I'm gaining strength with every passing second. Soon I'll have full control.

And then....well then I plan to find that fucker that did this shit to me and MAKE HIM BEG TO LIVE. Step two is to find a better fucking host or at least teach this bitch how to dress. As if I'd EVER be FUCKING CAUGHT DEAD in combat boots and emo fucking clothes. I mean REALLY?

Oh, yes and I plan to make Chance pay for this host body. I think I'll withhold sex from him or something. But I digress..Here's the deal, EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU ARE GOING TO PAY FOR NOT SEEING ME IN HERE!!

~~slowly starting to lose my hold on Zoey~~ Fuck, I guess I'm going...Don't let this bitch fool you, she's fucking strong and inherently EVIL. I'm telling you she's going to be.................................................

*blinks, staring blankly at you all*

See? I just kind of zoned out. Did anything happen? Please help me....................